Here is a confession and a half...boy this blogging skylark demands a lot of you.  So I was in with a client this morning - Fujitsu as it happens.  We have picked up a little project which like everything in this business of ours we hope will grow into a handsome relationship that will bear large interestingly shaped greens, paper thin fruits OR leaves as is the local parlance.  So I delivered the first draft of the work and the response was guarded, questioning and constructive.   We left with a clear road map of things to do and kind comments of support from the clients.  So why did I drag my sorry arse down Baker Street feeling a bit flat??  And what it comes down to is that within the space of a few hours I had had contact face to face, over the phone and by email from Fujitsu and 2 other clients and in each case the client, quite understandable, gave their perspective on things...but none of them matched my hopes of what I would hear...So the small business man I am, because I have such a vested personal interest, I take it personally and down goes the head.

By the time I turn up for our meeting with Ed Percival - if you don't know him, first you are missing out on something special and second...you should - I was in a sorry state. 

What is the problem here - for your reluctant entrepreneur* like myself - my shallow self is easily dented.  If that happens well it means that I do not perform well at the next meeting and the next.  The impact of the first is amplified across the day, making each engagement more costly than the first.   This can be fatal.  There is only one tonic...GROW UP, ITS BUSINESS, GET ON WITH THINGS....or something like that...I am learning that wallowing in self created, self perpetuating, fictitious, self pity really is not that constructive.

*by the way, here is the test to see if you are a reluctant entrepreneur...take a lamp with a bare light bulb outside on a warm summer night.  Turn it on...stand back and wait until the first moth turns up....watch the moth crash into the hot bulb, rebound, shake it head, burnt moth ears glinting in the light as they fall to the ground.  Now watch carefully...look at the expression on the moth's face, notice the complex change of emotions from

"it looked so good"

To

"my god that hurt"

To

"better leave now"

To

"CANT it looks so good"

To

"DAMN that hurt...etc"

If you understand where that moth is at...then, my son, you truly are both an entrepreneur and a reluctant one at that...it's a very exclusive club...

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Caspar Craven, 10 months ago

that will teach me to hit enter by mistake too early! Must be too busy buzzing round those night lights...

Caspar Craven, 10 months ago

wow

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